Gentle Melt

This morning the first snow of the season melts as it hits the warm earth. I am reminded of catching and melting those flakes on my warm tongue as a child. The joy and pleasure in the small act seemed immeasurable. God, let me be as one flake of snow--existing for a moment of beauty and joy. Falling softly to melt in Your warm heart.

purpose and self-consciousness

I've thought of this blog a lot over the past few weeks and pondered my lack of posts. I think my posting-problem has to do with the fact that I am uncertain as to the "purpose" of this space. What is this exactly? A public journal? A place to rant, muse, spew, unload or reflect? And who is it for? Me or the two people who may end up reading it? Ah--like most things, purpose makes a difference. I like a couple of lectionary-based blogs I have stumbled across. So this might turn into something of that sort in the future. Or not. The purpose of this space is still working itself out.

I recently read something that made me think of this blog and my concerns. I'm hoping the author (a lovely and thoughtful priest) won't mind if I quote him: "The journey towards one's true self, and the journey towards God are the same journey. Not because the self is God, but because God, as our creator, redeemer, and sustainer, resides at the heart of every human soul. The quest to become one's true self does not require self consciousness. In fact, self preoccupation can mess up the whole venture. The self is a target best hit obliquely." (Eric Haarer, "Designed for Life" in Desert Call, Vol. 9 No. 3 Fall 2009, p. 18).

Eric's perspective on the spiritual quest speaks to my concern about the purpose of this blog. I do not wish for this blog-space to become a "self-preoccupation-space". I certainly don't need any more space for self-centeredness in my life. With that intention made explicit, time to do some blogging. (and the two of you who might read this, please do hold me accountable if this page descends into a self-centered muck of posts.)